Subject: my experience with God
I'd grown up in the AME church. I knew the Bible quite well because we
were required by our parents to memorize scriptures, but, even so, at the
age of 32, I realized something was still missing from my life.
While stationed in Greece, one night after Bible Study, a young couple gave me a
tape of Praise and Worship songs. I was told to listen to the songs each
night before I went to bed. I tried to listen to them for three nights, but,
I couldn't stand them!
One night, while sitting in my dining room, I
opened my Bible to the 18th chapter of Jeremiah, and began reading at the
first verse. When I completed the sixth verse, I felt something on my arm.
When I looked, I saw there was a black, slimy substance all over my arms
and hands! Immediately, I KNEW the substance was SIN! I tried to scrape
it off, but each time I tried, it simply oozed back into place.
I screamed, "Lord, I'm so full of sin, I know you can never love me!"
up and ran over to the window. I lived above a small restaurant. Looking
out the window, I realized that if I jumped out (even on my head), I'd only
hurt myself--not kill myself.
At that precise moment, I felt two arms
embrace me and pull me back into the chair where I'd been sitting. I felt
so ashamed, I didn't even want to look at the Bible again, but I felt
compelled to do so.
When I did, I saw that the pages had been turned to
As I read that passage of scripture, I had to stop at the end
of verse twelve where I read, "as far as the east is from the west, so far
have I removed thy transgressions from thee."
At that moment, I wept
sorely, and asked God to forgive me of my sins. I asked Him to come into
my heart and be Lord and Master of my life. After I'd spent more than an
hour confessing my sins before the Lord, I came to myself. I was lying on
the floor (prostrate), and I knew without a shadow of doubt, that my name
had been written in the Lamb's Book of Life!